EUDAIMONIA

Prologue: As a tribute on a memory of my spiritual mother

 Feeling contented and 

 prosperous

What you are being to me

Is more eloquent than all literary devices

You showed me the path

This leads me to the shore of maturity

Where I have found illusions

My soul is in oblivion

Random are your ways..

But redeeming are they

You did not ridicule at my weakness

Nor reluctant to dissolve me in God

Roads seem to be silent

When your whisperings reminding me

There I find solitude

In the contemplating saga of experiences..

Thank you for being there for me..

In my tears and smiles..

Let this legend continue

Till we reach eternity.

Merkai..

“I am in search of your soul

For heaping your essence for a better grace

Give me what you have”

Asked by God one day

“I am broken..Delicate

I am ugly and weak so far

I am not worthy for you”

Replayed my soul..

“I want to be there in your existence

Even in your ugly and fetish nature

I can change you and re-mould you”

Said God again..

I can’t give any answer, but only tears..

He found that Merkai in me..

My real essence which I put in my life..

You teach me..

How to live with a purpose

How to survive in life

How to be sincere forever

How to love unconditionally..

How to transform my pain into grace

How to pray in the darkest nights of my soul

How to heal others

How to be I am for eternity

Yes!  you are my real teacher  my God!

In the World of words..

 

Dashing of words 

Around the gloomy world

Exploring many meanings

Extending purposeful plans..

You and I become strangers again

The void of silence emptied the wall

No notifications, no memories..

We are rounding and bushing over words..

Holding this for long time

Without saying a word

Will splash my world of inner castle

Give me a word- a divine word

Let your word heal the world..

     

    My each breath …

One fine morning I felt very difficult to take breath..I felt that my lungs are going to stop its function as the sudden strikes in Kerala. I could not sleep at previous night because of severe cough and headache. It is sheer cold and frosty outside. Then I started to count how much I can take breath. Whistling sound seemed to be so horrible for me..

When I was sitting in chapel for my morning prayers, I really thank God for this chance to understand how precious each breath in my life. I felt more joy when I thank God for each breath..Then I started to say I love you Jesus in each breath..

What I realize from this experience is-How wonder it is to think about God’s work.

Sometimes God use illness and unexpected conditions as an aid to teach us how important God in our life..Even in the case of taking an inhalation.

So don’t see things with a routine mind..Each breath is new and each second is creative.

Open your eyes to see surprises of God for you..Enjoy your life with a heart full of gratitude. 

Petty things…

We don’t mind to work hard for hours and hours if that is our duty. It denotes our responsibility. But when we are asked to spend five more minutes for another person after that, it would be more difficult to complete that without questioning it. Those five minutes may destroy the pure intention of our heart. Sometimes, it is easy to finish, or find macro and mega things in life...it is in spiritual realm also..We are inclined to do things, to think according to the value attached with it. But what makes something real valuable?. What God wanted to do from me will only value our deeds. We could leave our family and dear ones when we came to monastery as a candidate for our dream to become a monk. But when years passed by, it is very difficult to depart a friend.  Preaching a retreat is a great service, but giving up a momentary satisfaction of mind as a sacrifice for another without knowing anybody is harder work that preaching sometime. Because sublimation and transcending of ego –the real I in me- will be a sweating task. Pondering over petty things and spending time over it is a great sin. Try to priorities your values in life according to what God really want from me.

Pain..

        I come across with an experience which taught me lavishing vibrancy of pain. Pain is a blessing, for those who know how precious it is. Sometimes God almighty allow this edifying technique in our lives, as a tool, for opening our eyes, or to understand what is missing in our life. As humans, we all are reluctant to face or even to think of it. We used to pray – “God please take all pains from my life and bless me” .But the real prayer should be-“ God please help me to understand how precious each pain in my life is” . So we can tolerate with our life with all its naughty ways.

There may be different kinds of pain...it may be physical, mental or spiritual. It may be a pain of family problems,  loss of our soul mate, misunderstandings...Or even worse things which we cannot imagine. 

 What I understand is- the fear about what will going to happen to me without some particular attachments in our life, or some particular situations of life is more dangerous that the original fact. The fear of pain is the real tragedy. Don’t be fear of pains..Let it come and consume your soul...one thing I can promise you is that, it will definitely cleanse you for better future.  God never block one door without open another one for you. He cannot leave you with tears..Because you are His favorite child, He has created you in His own likeness and image.

So try to find the rainbow in your tears..it will be more beautiful than ever when you see it in your face.